Grateful.

I walk among you. 
I am that girl who appears to have it all together, yet in reality my life is a complete mess.
I am that girl who rather be by herself than in a crowd of people.
I am that girl that cares about what other people are going through and neglects my own state of being.
I am that girl that keeps her emotions bottled up inside and only let a select few in.
I am that girl that knows what I want, but I am scared to voice my opinion.
I am that girl that cares too much about how other people perceive her than to speak my mind.
I am that girl that has been rejected so many times by other people. 
I am that girl who has had to learn to trust.
I am that girl who only wants to be loved and accepted.
And some days I am that girl that just cares way too much about the world`s opinion rather than God`s opinion of me ...
Even though I am broken and still learning my place in this big world, I am grateful for it all. 
I am grateful for the good. 
I am grateful for the bad.
I am grateful for the joy and the pain I wish I never had.
I am grateful for the people I have come across and the people God will lead me to.
I am grateful for the opportunities God has placed in front of me.
I am grateful for all the memories.
I am grateful I am given a second chance in life.
I am grateful for all the blessings in disguise.


"We can let the disappointments [of life] eat us up, tear us apart, consume us, let it define our relationships OR just LET IT GO...Do not let your past be any kind of emotional crutch that defines you. Your past is part of you but it is not who you are in Christ! Let a piece of the pain go each day and I guarantee that before you realize it, it will no longer be what controls your emotions and relationships. You have to give GOD ALL of you. If you are keeping any part from Him He will continue to bring it to the surface until it is dealt with once and for all! Ask God to take this painful area of your life and use if for His kingdom. If you truly believe that God is in control then you must also believe that you are exactly where you need to be, with the people you need to be with, for His plan for your life to unfold." -anonymous

Broken Reality

What happened to integrity and land of the free?

Instead of chasing after this so called “American Dream”

The more one ponders what this statement could really mean

One can only conclude that our consequences are unforeseen

Because now we are taught that money and fame is the way to go

But in fact, that is not so

And in our country it is all about whom you know

To get you to where you want to go

We Americans also might have everything we could need

But we keep begging for more out of greed

Then people seem never to be content so they begin to complain

But in reality it is only out of vain

Then there are men and women fighting across the seas

While families are living off the government`s schemes

What happened to working hard and earning a college degree?

Instead of getting a scholarship because you are a minority

And have you heard about No Child Left Behind

With that we might as well forget why education was even designed

Should I go on, must I say more?

Is this the American Dream you have been searching for?