It has been one of those days where I feel as though I am just fighting for answers. Just sitting in the unknown and all I can feel is my heart pounding. At this point in life, I have no clue what my purpose is here on earth for Christ. My heart, especially recently, has been broken, but I have this passion beyond my own understanding to do something that is and will change the world. I know first that revival has to start within me. I have no idea if God wants me out on the mission field helping those in bondage or if He has other plans for me. Right now I just want Him to show me His will for me, because I am stuck in a waiting period. And let`s be honest, it sucks. I feel as though I am powerless and too young to change the world for Christ. I feel as though I cannot do anything at this point. In the meantime, I just want Him to give me wisdom, hope, and encouragement for others that is beyond me.
Even though I know God has everything planned out already, waiting is hard, and waiting patiently is even harder. Just remember that you are not forgotten about during this time. He is working in and through you in ways you may not realize. So keep your head up and your love for Him on fire. Also, don't forget to pray because God may not answer our prayers the way we wanted them to be answered, but He does not forget the times in which we had faith in Him and prayed.
“My Lord God I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.” -Thomas Merton
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